A couple of months ago, I ran across a facebook post that broke me down and yet motivated me all in the same breath. It said:
“Allow Holy Spirit to clear out the cache of injuries in your heart. You’ll need the extra space in the next decade”
A cache is simply a hardware or software component that stores data so that future requests for that data can be served faster. It’s a collection of items of the same type that are stored in a hidden or inaccessible place. Meant for future use! When a cache is cleared, you then will visit webpages and experience fresh copies of everything you see instead or retrieving what has been saved. Emptying a cache means that it is cleared and you leave room for no retrieval and no confusion.
Allowing the Holy Spirit to clear the cache of injuries in my heart meant that the data and residue of those past hurts would be removed, in order to stop future requests for them being made. It meant that once removed, I would then have a fresh outlook and experience instead of retrieving old hurts and injuries.
When I read the post I began to cry from the confirmation of what God had already been speaking to me. I meditated on all the data from past hurt and injuries that I knew I was holding onto. My mind was immediately flooded with all the pain I had endured at the hands of those around me that I had come to trust. I then came to the realization that I had held on so tight in order to protect myself, that roots of bitterness and malice had began to form. In the same instance, I was reminded of all the new things and the healing that God had began in my life.
I was also bombarded by the thought that if I wanted to be open to recieve and take part fully in what He was doing, I needed to let it ALL go.
I needed to allow the Holy Spirit to clear that cache once and for all. I needed to let go of every hurt and allow Him to uproot every root of bitterness. I needed to let go of even past memories and assumptions that stemmed from an ongoing pattern of offense in my life. God was indeed doing this new thing in me and in my heart already and I needed to let the clearing happen so that I could percieve it well. If I wanted a fresh outlook on His children and if I wanted to continue loving and forgiving them properly, I had to stop resisting the process and let Him clear it all out. I needed it all gone so that there was no confusion and no more running back to old negative thought patterns. If God was going do this new thing in me and use me, I was going to need the storage space. That space could then be filled with His love, His grace, His mercy, and His goodness. In doing that I could for sure be far more effective in being the woman He was making me into.
With this I challenge you to do the same. To be willing to face the truth of past hurts and offenses and let God reveal it so that He can heal those hurting places and remove every ounce of residue from it. While the process itself was ugly most days, the latter days have been the most amazing and walking in healing feels GOODT! I pray this blesses and encourages you to allow the clearing of the cache of your own heart.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; 24 And see if there be any hurtful way in me, And lead me in the everlasting way.
~ Psalm 139:23–24